I hope they're not consciously passive aggressive. That would be irksome.

We have had some bad luck, certainly, and made some bad choices. We've also made expensive choices we wouldn't change if we could (having children, going back to school at fairly "advanced" ages). But, bed made. Lying in it.

Honestly, I believe good luck is also to be celebrated. You don't have to "deserve" what you have by dint of "hard work." You don't have to deserve happiness. At least, that's what I keep telling myself.

Yes. I am feeling brighter. I'm still not answering my phone or picking up voice mail messages (do other people do that? I feel really guilty about it), but I have been developing a really good self care morning routine. I'm doing better. Still not "there," but I'm starting to wonder if anyone ever gets "there."