OMG, yes, the near-irresistible urge for carbs and sugar! That's a huge consequence of this particular triggering for me, too. And it's the oddest thing, but knowing that's what's happening doesn't help stop it once it's triggered. The susceptibility to outrage grows, and then the carb cravings increase, and it's a spiral.

I've been thinking all day about your idea that this is self-harm. I honestly had never discovered that nuance. I think of self-harm as a category of more concrete things like cutting (which I had only the briefest brush with in my adolescence), but of course you're quite right. Why, when I have at least some choice, would I choose to go troll-hunting online, unless out of an urge to harm myself? Thinking of it that way is really useful for me--really puts it into a new perspective.

I don't say it often enough, but on Twitter and here, I take so much courage and strength from you. Thank you.