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darkemeralds) wrote2011-05-12 12:28 pm
darkemeralds) wrote2011-05-12 12:28 pm
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Note to self
Too-tight clothes: not only do they look kind of bad, but they put me physically and mentally back in all the periods of my life where my weight was creeping upward as my depression deepened.
So even though my weight is moving downward now and my mood has grown ever more stable, these jeans, pinching a bit around the waist as they do and creating an unlovely muffin-top effect, are making me feel dangerously near the Bad Old Days.
The gleeful knowledge that three months ago I couldn't pull them up, and even three weeks ago I couldn't zip them up, and three weeks hence I may be casting about for a smaller size, in no way alters the fact that today they're invoking some of the worst feelings I've ever had.
So, back into the closet they go for another week or two.
So even though my weight is moving downward now and my mood has grown ever more stable, these jeans, pinching a bit around the waist as they do and creating an unlovely muffin-top effect, are making me feel dangerously near the Bad Old Days.
The gleeful knowledge that three months ago I couldn't pull them up, and even three weeks ago I couldn't zip them up, and three weeks hence I may be casting about for a smaller size, in no way alters the fact that today they're invoking some of the worst feelings I've ever had.
So, back into the closet they go for another week or two.