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It's odd, isn't it, to think of being afraid to be thin?

It is isn't terrifying me yet this time, but I think the fact I expect it to has probably helped. Do you think it's maybe just fear of the unknown, getting out of one's comfort zone, realising that excuses will have to be tossed aside?

(I think that may be why I'm doing it, actually. Cheaper than therapy!)

It's a very specific feeling, and I don't think it needs a lot of psychological analysis

I agree with this completely because I've attempted to analyse it frequently, with no luck - other than, as you said (and as Ms Bitchcakes said in the blog someone linked to) - feeling exposed. When you mentioned shame, I initially dismissed the notion just because of the word, but the more I think about it, it seems more appropriate. Once upon a time, I was a skinny kid who loved being the centre of attention, and now... well, actually I hate weather in which I can't wear at least a jacket, now you mention it.