darkemeralds: Naked woman on a bike, caption "I don't care, I'm still free" (Bike Freedom)
First of all it's October, and truly October-ish outside--cool, sunny, smells like apples and leaves? You know.

Second of all, I had to work today. You'd think this would be a bad thing, but I don't actually mind working on Saturday once in a while*. I get a lot done. I got a lot done. I like the quiet.

Third of all, two bike rides in the perfect. One of them took me past the goats again.

Fourth of all, a hot order of fish and chips from the Irish pub on the corner, and Volume Two of S.U. Pacat (aka [livejournal.com profile] freece)'s Captive Prince (which, dear god, where-have-you-been-all-my-life, is fantastic) just queued up all fresh.

So really, my life is perfect.

*And also? There are only thirteen Saturdays left in the whole world where this job will be an issue.
darkemeralds: A round magical sigil of mysterious meaning, in bright colors with black outlines. A pen nib is suggested by the intersection of the cryptic forms. (Default)
This happened a week ago:

Two countdown screens showing 100 days, 0 hours, 0 minutes, 0 seconds, and 99 days, 23 hours, 59 minutes and 59 seconds
Retirement Countdown


so the "My Typical Workday" meme (which I spotted on [personal profile] lamentables' journal) seems like a good way of celebrating, since there will only be a few more of them.

Mememememememe )
darkemeralds: Screencap from Life on Mars with caption Welcome To The Team (Welcome to the Team)
It’s lovely, it really is, to have absolutely no further career ambitions (or that nasty sense that I should be more ambitious). Absent those drives, it is VERY EASY not to give a fuck anymore.

When I say I don't give a fuck anymore, I don't mean that my work is bad. I still care very much about quality. It's more about quantity, really. "Do your job, but don't do too much of it," as Jennifer Marlowe once said in WKRP in Cincinnati.

God, it's such a relief to be free of all the authority issues, all the insecurity, all the FUD of the workplace. As the days tick by (159 of ‘em left) and any threat of punitive action recedes further, I become more relaxed. When I walk past the boss’s office with my lunch dishes I no longer really worry whether he’s thinking I spend too much time taking lunch breaks. If someone comes to my desk and catches me on Twitter or something, I sort of shrug inwardly.

("Punitive action?" you inquire. "What kind of place have you been working in?" It's not about the workplace, it's really about my dad. And it's not really about punishment, it's more about rejection. 'Nuff said.)

Mind you, those authority/guilt issues aren’t gone--not from my psyche--and I probably still need to work on them for my own peace of mind. But it is absolutely wonderful not having them foremost in my brain every second of the workday. I had no idea how pervasive they were till they started evaporating.
darkemeralds: Screencap from Where The Hell Is Matt (Matt Dancing)
Do you ever have one of those days where you just feel so good that it's almost like being in love?

I'm having one of them right now. I wish I could pinpoint exactly what's making everything feel so wonderful. What combination of perfect weather, adequate rest, good food, pleasant company, just-so exercise, new ideas, and fortuitous timing makes my brain full of dopamine and oxytocin and serotonin (or, alternatively, connects my consciousness to the universal field of goodness, or whatever)?

There was coffee, and more bike riding than usual. The forecast called for heat, but the weather stopped at perfect breezy warmth. I had a nice leisurely start to my day after about nine hours' sleep. A good visit with my mom at the farmers' market. There was the emergency consumption of a pint of very-ripe raspberries in the form of a bright magenta smoothie on the porch. A zillion fun emails with links to SDCC pictures and videos. Lots of reading and commenting on LJ and DW. Dishes to wash and groceries to put away and good food to prepare. A little bit of bacon. A good audiobook* and a good book-book**.

It's not like anything has really changed much from yesterday. I eat raspberries every chance I get. The weather's been gorgeous for weeks. I get plenty of sleep most weekends...I mean, there is no extraordinary cause that I can identify. And yet, I'm in an extraordinary state. Even Graydie the not-that-stray-anymore cat is feeling it. Normally aloof and outdoors, she's been by several times for hugs and scritches.

Today, the world is beautiful, and I'm at home in it, and life is good. I want to store up this apparently causeless bliss. It might come in handy on a rainy day.

View from above of two baskets of farmers market produce clipped to the rear rack of DarkEm's Dutch bike

*Science Set Free by Rupert Sheldrake
**Vicious Circle by Mike Carey
darkemeralds: Poster image of farm-fresh food (Eat Food)
The only time I ever really want a big green salad is when the weather is hot. That's today, so I went over to Whole Foods and loaded up on those mixed baby greens they sell in bulk.

Dinner for one )

Blueberries for dessert!

Punting

23/8/11 00:23
darkemeralds: A round magical sigil of mysterious meaning, in bright colors with black outlines. A pen nib is suggested by the intersection of the cryptic forms. (Default)
I have sooooo many things to say about the pleasures and delights of my UK visit so far, and soooo little leisure in which to say them. [personal profile] ravurian is more fabulous than I'd even dared to hope, [personal profile] ruric is the soul of generosity, and [personal profile] altariel today handed me Cambridge: The Insider's Tour complete with some of the best conversation I have ever enjoyed.

Each day so far has been packed with goodness: miles of walking, theatre, sights, museums, pubs and boats and churches and cafés and parks and birds and languages and people from all over the world. And books and whisky and ice cream and trains, and oh, I just love it here so much!

So since I've walked my feet off, and it's late and the jet lag isn't quite gone yet, and I have another full day tomorrow (and the next day...and the one after that), I wish to leave you with this selected shot of the beauties of Cambridge, taken from a punt on the Cam this afternoon.

You're welcome. )
darkemeralds: Naked woman on a bike, caption "I don't care, I'm still free" (I Don't Care)
I never quite realize how much stress I'm under until I get a break from it (or until I start getting overdraft notices, take your pick). I took Friday off to make the three-day holiday weekend into four, and oh, the sense of healing!

Rich days )

1I'm enjoying it. It's the kind of slow-unfolding story with slow-building suspense that I particularly admire.
2This one in this wool.
3Ironically, we were discussing writer's block.
4I don't even get to work at 8:30
5It was fabulous, pan-fried in a bit of butter and balsamic vinegar with dill and salt.

Whee!

29/3/11 12:49
darkemeralds: Manga-style avatar of DarkEm with caption Hee (cartoony me)
I just got my vacation request approved. Whoo hoo! UK in August, here I come.

Specific planning commences as soon as I see my tax refund. Confession: I've already started practice packing. Shut up. I'm not a total retent. I'm just...detail-oriented.

I'm aiming to fly on August 18, sleep on the 19th, and do London the 20th-25th or so.

There, I shall spend time with [personal profile] ravurian, [personal profile] ruric, and several other lovely folks who have expressed interest in a London meetup. Part of the plan is to take a day trip to Cambridge to a) see Cambridge a little and b) meet [livejournal.com profile] altariel.

Then south to friends in Sussex (who haven't heard this news yet--I should probably inform them, huh?), and finally to Scotland and chez [personal profile] kis, where there will be walking and dining and coastlines and a cottage and some of the most spectacular scenery in the world.

Eeee!

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